Headcracker

me and my sedentary life

headcracker — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 08:10:21 +0000

here i go again, after all those months of not blogging I came to realize that I need some outlet for my thoughts and emotions.

I already got a job.

Still I haven’t graduated yet.

And my life is becoming a routine. I wake up. Eat my food. Prepare for work. Attend to my duties.Then go home. Sleep. Then it starts all over again.

Though I haven’t figured out yet how can I get out of this sedentary life, I am planning to get out of this situation. Bring back more joy and excitement in my life. ‘Cause now I know that this kind of life is not the one for me. It eats up my energy. Almost as if I feel that I am not capable of making my life turns out what I what it to be.

Who wants to be a robotic kind of person?

For now I have to get some sleep. I’ve been up for almost 24hrs.

Sleep mode.

something is missing

headcracker — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 05:33:01 +0000

and i can’t find it.

it’s not that i am not using my eyes very well. it is just that i do not know what I am looking for. how hard could that be?

when you are given a life with surprises and joys and pains and sufferings and you believed that you became wiser because of everything you faced and conquered but still you know that something is still lacking, how do you deal with that?

i’m going through that. And i don’t know how to fix it.

sem’s finally over

headcracker — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 05:21:17 +0000

first semester A.Y 2008-2009. done.

my gaadd..what have i done this sem?

hmm..i hope my grades turn fine.i haven’t got them.

and so this means, tons and tons of sleeping, relaxing, and whatever for some..but not for me.

I finally told my parents that I am AGAIN filling LOA. I have to get a job. i’m crossing my fingers for that one.ü hope everything turns fine..

quote of the day

headcracker — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:41:12 +0000

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

i’m back..ü

headcracker — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 10:07:02 +0000

wooh! after weeks of not blogging i’m finally back..hahaha

fiscally drained..lots of paper works..different activities..etc.etc.etc.

i tried to blog but my mind was drained also..hahaha

so, i was not able to write anything for my page.:(

but then again, we all have our second chance..and this is it..ü

carter within us

headcracker — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 15:31:13 +0000

I’ve watched Coach Carter several times before but I watched it once again. It has been written at the back of the VCD case that Samuel Jackson’s performance in the movie is one of his best performances.

I kept on watching the movie because it reminds me of my desire. The desire to live my life knowing that I am able not just to touch but to move lives is what keeps me connected to the movie. I have a fascination on shows like Oprah, Wish Ko Lang, and the likes because I really want to be a part of a charity institution or spearhead one. But I kept on thinking how on earth will I be able to do that if financially and emotionally, I have my own problems that I do not know yet what to do solve it. I just hope that the right time for me to find out the solution is just a few days away from now.

So there, back to the movie. My favorite parts were when Samuel Jackson stated his firm decision regarding the lockout and when Cruz was saying his reflection about fear.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light and not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people wouldn’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It is not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same as we are liberated from our own fear. Our presence automatically liberates others.”-Cruz

“What you achieve goes way beyond the win lose column or what’s going to be written on the front page of the sports section tomorrow. You’ve achieved something some people spend their whole lives trying to find. What you achieved is that ever elusive victory within.” – Coach Carter

question of the day

headcracker — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 06:01:56 +0000

What language would you like to learn and why?

i survived!ü

headcracker — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 05:58:29 +0000

i survived the first month of my blogging habit. Yeah, right. It was not updated EVERYDAY but at least it is still updated.ha!

I am glad, truly. Spending some time publishing posts in the net/blog that somehow is readable and interesting is an achievement for me. I don’t care about the stats, really. Well, I do check it out sometimes. But I am not expecting to have hundred hits with just one month. I felt that this blogging community is so vast that my posts wouldn’t be noticed. But thanks to the few who kept on coming back, even though they do not leave some comments. Its an honor that my posts are somehow recognized. And thank you also to those who let me know that they appreciated my posts, shared their insights, and took the time to read.

With my ever ningas cogon mentality, i was really trying hard to keep THIS blog. I hope that i will still be able to update this through time. I am planning to edit some parts of this blog but that will have to wait until I am able to finish my school requirements for this week.

I really love this and the people behind this great blog site.ü

self sending letter

headcracker — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 16:05:16 +0000

To the 10 year old child I had been:

I haven’t thought of you for a while. I was too preoccupied that I didn’t have much time to dwell on the thoughts of a 10-year old me.

I’m sorry I haven’t achieved all that you wanted to achieve before. The saddest part maybe was that my academic life was not as good as yours have been and I haven’t been able to keep my promise that I will be able to reunite my family ‘as soon as possible’. Ten years have passed.

I had so many mistakes and failures for the past ten years of existence but I do not want this letter to be full of ‘sorry’.

What did I achieve so far that you could be proud of?

1.I am able to communicate with your friends during your elementary years.

2.I am still a non-smoker.

3.I have been into romantic relationships and have learned a lot.

4. I am able to get to college and is now finding ways to be able to unburden my parents of sending me to school.

5. I made friends with my enemies before.

6. I am making writing a habit again.

7. I am a proud mother now.

8. I am starting to make a plan for my life now.

9. I have helped charity organizations through donations.

10. I have surpassed all the challenges that Life gave me for the past ten years.

I would still continue living and loving. Thank you for the wonderful memories you made for it helped me go through life.

I hope that five or ten years from now, when I am going to write a letter to you again, there would be more achievements that I could write about. Thank you very much. I love you.