self sending letter

To the 10 year old child I had been:

I haven’t thought of you for a while. I was too preoccupied that I didn’t have much time to dwell on the thoughts of a 10-year old me.

I’m sorry I haven’t achieved all that you wanted to achieve before. The saddest part maybe was that my academic life was not as good as yours have been and I haven’t been able to keep my promise that I will be able to reunite my family ‘as soon as possible’. Ten years have passed.

I had so many mistakes and failures for the past ten years of existence but I do not want this letter to be full of ’sorry’.

What did I achieve so far that you could be proud of?

1.I am able to communicate with your friends during your elementary years.

2.I am still a non-smoker.

3.I have been into romantic relationships and have learned a lot.

4. I am able to get to college and is now finding ways to be able to unburden my parents of sending me to school.

5. I made friends with my enemies before.

6. I am making writing a habit again.

7. I am a proud mother now.

8. I am starting to make a plan for my life now.

9. I have helped charity organizations through donations.

10. I have surpassed all the challenges that Life gave me for the past ten years.

I would still continue living and loving. Thank you for the wonderful memories you made for it helped me go through life.

I hope that five or ten years from now, when I am going to write a letter to you again, there would be more achievements that I could write about. Thank you very much. I love you.

Sincerely yours,

the 20 year old me

i used to think

that i would do anything just to be able to continue my studies until life brings a great challenge. i got pregnant and for a moment in my life i thought of having an abortion. but i didn’t do it. i got out of school for the meantime, not so sure if i would be able to get back. but that was a choice i’m proud i made.

that life has a happy ending just like in fairy tales. Although there are reports, personal accounts, movies, etc. that says otherwise, i still want my life to have a happy ending.

that every living thing that has eyes sleep with their eyes closed. not until i saw the fishes in the aquarium of my cousin.

that “best friends” do not part until my best friend died and i saw other persons fighting and departing from each other.

that ice cream melts because you started licking it.

that i’m not beautiful.

that when balloons flies up in the sky it will eventually reach heaven. That is why i used to wish something whenever i saw one.

that men are better than women.

that the moon is what the sun looks like at night.

i still have a good laugh when i remember how i used to think and act.  life is full of treasures and pleasures, indeed.

nurture your relationships

why do we get broken hearts? why do we long for love if love has failed us to feel the completeness and happiness that we have hoped for?

maybe it is because there is a glimpse of hope that someday, somewhere we will be able to get hold of it.

I’ve recently read a bulletin post of one of my friends in friendster. i got sad to know that she’s not having a good relationship with the father of her child.

then i heard the news that one of my friends will be married next year. yes, it is already planned.

i noticed a couple on the street who’s shouting at each other and on the other side is a group of persons laughing out loud.

different events. different relationships. different persons. but we all need affection. we all need love. we all need companionship. we all need our friends. we all need to belong. we need someone. we need the others. we need all of it because it defines our lives.

I personally do not want to have an empty life. a life that just go by the habit. wake up-eat-study-work-sleep. What a boring life i will have without friends, lover, family, and the other persons around me that bring joy to my life.

but heart aches do come. and so is struggle and pain. what matter most is that we have companions that will help us along the way. simple persons in our lives that touches our hearts and souls are necessary to have a wonderful life. we must, in return, be a blessing to others.

let your love be known. reach out. go out. make friends. connect to other persons. live your life in a way that you will have the least regrets to say when you’re already at your death bed.

where are you?

i noticed that there were less children selling sampaguita garlands in UPLB. i don’t know if it was just i was not able to stay in the Cpark for a while or something happened while i was in LOA.

i hope that the reason for it was that their parents found a better job.

just wondering.:)

my police friend

JUNE 8, 2008

it was my first time to be in pnpa silang, cavite. it was also the first time that i saw face to face my friend ge after one year and three months. so much have changed.

there were rules though that we must not be seen holding hands, kissing (we wouldn’t do it even without the rules), and hugging each other. And yes, we have broken some of it, not the kissing may i remind you.

he was a lot sexier (in terms of body measurements) than me. aaahhh! i was surfing my friendster account and i saw our picture. i missed him again. hope he’s doing fine there. he would be graduating on 2011.

i went there alone and it was an adventure. i saw the taal lake for the first time for real.hahaha..it was beautiful.there were lots of flowers along the roads. and there was even a hanging bridge.yes! i had lots of fun even the trip was tiring. and it was worth it. i hope to visit there again.