me and my sedentary life

here i go again, after all those months of not blogging I came to realize that I need some outlet for my thoughts and emotions.

I already got a job.

Still I haven’t graduated yet.

And my life is becoming a routine. I wake up. Eat my food. Prepare for work. Attend to my duties.Then go home. Sleep. Then it starts all over again.

Though I haven’t figured out yet how can I get out of this sedentary life, I am planning to get out of this situation. Bring back more joy and excitement in my life. ‘Cause now I know that this kind of life is not the one for me. It eats up my energy. Almost as if I feel that I am not capable of making my life turns out what I what it to be.

Who wants to be a robotic kind of person?

For now I have to get some sleep. I’ve been up for almost 24hrs.

Sleep mode.

something is missing

and i can’t find it.

it’s not that i am not using my eyes very well. it is just that i do not know what I am looking for. how hard could that be?

when you are given a life with surprises and joys and pains and sufferings and you believed that you became wiser because of everything you faced and conquered but still you know that something is still lacking, how do you deal with that?

i’m going through that. And i don’t know how to fix it.

sem’s finally over

first semester A.Y 2008-2009. done.

my gaadd..what have i done this sem?

hmm..i hope my grades turn fine.i haven’t got them.

and so this means, tons and tons of sleeping, relaxing, and whatever for some..but not for me.

I finally told my parents that I am AGAIN filling LOA. I have to get a job. i’m crossing my fingers for that one.ü hope everything turns fine..

aspiring poets

Poetry: our last topic for our ENG106 class.

We are to make different poems given a prompt by different student reporters. it is exciting since we get to explore new ways of writing poems. some of the prompts were taken from the book we’re using and some were made by the reporters themselves.

juts few hours ago the class made a poem. it was good since everyone made a line for the poem. the catch is we are to write a line,sentence,phrase,etc. for it but we are not to read whatever the previous writer had written. it turned out to be a LOVE poem.hahaha it is so damn cute..ü that is what i call fun. i can’t wait to have a copy of that poem.ü

i’m back..ü

wooh! after weeks of not blogging i’m finally back..hahaha

fiscally drained..lots of paper works..different activities..etc.etc.etc.

i tried to blog but my mind was drained also..hahaha

so, i was not able to write anything for my page.:(

but then again, we all have our second chance..and this is it..ü

carter within us

I’ve watched Coach Carter several times before but I watched it once again. It has been written at the back of the VCD case that Samuel Jackson’s performance in the movie is one of his best performances.

 

 

I kept on watching the movie because it reminds me of my desire. The desire to live my life knowing that I am able not just to touch but to move lives is what keeps me connected to the movie. I have a fascination on shows like Oprah, Wish Ko Lang, and the likes because I really want to be a part of a charity institution or spearhead one. But I kept on thinking how on earth will I be able to do that if financially and emotionally, I have my own problems that I do not know yet what to do solve it. I just hope that the right time for me to find out the solution is just a few days away from now.

 

So there, back to the movie. My favorite parts were when Samuel Jackson stated his firm decision regarding the lockout and when Cruz was saying his reflection about fear.

 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light and not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people wouldn’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It is not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same as we are liberated from our own fear. Our presence automatically liberates others.”-Cruz

 

“What you achieve goes way beyond the win lose column or what’s going to be written on the front page of the sports section tomorrow. You’ve achieved something some people spend their whole lives trying to find. What you achieved is that ever elusive victory within.” – Coach Carter

i survived!ü

i survived the first month of my blogging habit. Yeah, right. It was not updated EVERYDAY but at least it is still updated.ha!

I am glad, truly. Spending some time publishing posts in the net/blog that somehow is readable and interesting is an achievement for me. I don’t care about the stats, really. Well, I do check it out sometimes. But I am not expecting to have hundred hits with just one month. I felt that this blogging community is so vast that my posts wouldn’t be noticed. But thanks to the few who kept on coming back, even though they do not leave some comments. Its an honor that my posts are somehow recognized. And thank you also to those who let me know that they appreciated my posts, shared their insights, and took the time to read.

With my ever ningas cogon mentality, i was really trying hard to keep THIS blog. I hope that i will still be able to update this through time. I am planning to edit some parts of this blog but that will have to wait until I am able to finish my school requirements for this week.

I really love this and the people behind this great blog site.ü

the things i love about my course

one of those things is to be able to know new words and meanings and use it. then some persons would look at me and say, “What’s that? Where did you get that?” And I’ll just tell them, “A gift of my course.” Haha! In our campus, our course is somewhat regarded as a low class of course since they claim that ‘it doesn’t deal with sciences’ and the students opted to study the course because they are not intelligent enough to deal with the sciences. But hey! If we wanted to study a different course, we would have done it. It’s just this is where our passion directed us.

Anyways, here are some of it. I’ll post the other ones next time.

bahookie- buttocks

celebutante- a celebrity who is very fashionable

mentee- the person you mentor

twonk- stupid person

froyo- frozen yogurt

so there.ü

unstressful day

I repainted my nails with bold red color. It was my way of relaxing. I was hesitant at first because I didn’t know if it will suit my skin tone. But I want something different so I went for it.

I did it all by myself. I think I must have spent almost two and a half hour for that because I kept on doing it all over again. I felt some pains in my neck and back.ü

There was a feeling of joy while seeing each nail transform from a seemingly lifeless one into a colorful one.ü

next time i’ll try some bright colors.

4 days left

Four days left and it’s the start of the -BER months.ü

i’m sooo excited! this means that it is Christmas season once again.ü i need to save all the money that i could save to prepare for Christmas time..weeeh! I could even feel the cold wind especially at night. i’ll be doing the to-buy, to-do, and wish lists again.ü

hello Santa? i’ve been a good girl so far.ü you know what to do.ü